Frustration

We've been married for 10 years. And frustration is mounting. I love you but the words coming out from my mouth keep on hurting you. I didn't miss the look at your face and my heart ache every time. But do you know? You don't. I'm also a human. Tired of being misunderstood. When you put others better than me. When you doesn't care how I feel and my sacrifices. When you ignores me. When you prioritise others when I'm the one who suffers the most. You once told me that, you don't want to live near any of your siblings because you fear they might hear us fight/quarrel. Well, that's how I'm in your eyes. You have no idea how your word hurts me. But I swore to myself from then, that I won't retaliate anymore. I won't remind you, I won't nag you, I won't tell you how and what I feel. I just won't care how I feel. And every ache or hurt I encounter, I just pray for it to died down. Even when it kills my love for you, a bit at a time. Maybe that's our way out. To slowly not loving you to the point of falling into an irreparable abyss. And I'll just wait for the time to come. Be strong me self.