The Fight

I almost given up on you. Yes, I feel betrayed. And the saddest thing is, it happens on 1st Syawal, 5 June 2019. I'm keeping this as a reminder. For you and for me to remember. At the moment, I'm ready to let you go. I'm so hurt, so damn hurt that I lost every will I have. And I'm such a willful person. I just don't care anymore.
The main issue is, and my big question is, why the same girl? The girl named meryl. She, whom you said cute. She, who called you daddy. She, with whom you joked in the WhatsApp, whereas you're mostly cold and answer shortly whenever I texted you. And she, whom you jokingly mentioned as deng, which means love. And who am I then? She, whom go to you to solve her problems which she herself incited. Yet me, your wife, really avoided to burden you and most times doesn't want to bother you with my problems.
It hurts so much. So very much. Because I've make sure that I never hurt you. Because I always controlled how I mingle in others as I always aware I'm your wife. And I'm sorry, for that day I mentioned everything I did for you. Its not that I'm being petty but, I feel frustrated and betrayed. That I've become to wonder, what I've thrown my 10 years of living into. How could you?
To say that I'm fully ready to let you go is untrue. Yet, I refused being a fool for keeping an unfaithful partner. Sometimes, lives better being alone rather than constantly fearing of being betrayed.
And this girl, I've repeatedly mentioned of her inappropriateness to you, yet you ignored. And now I'm giving you the last chance. Because I'm not sure whether I can tolerate the next blow or not.