Why Love Letters?

Somebody told me that nothing can be fully erased in the digital world. Especially in this world wide Web. It is something called as a digital trail. Eventually, somebody bound to stumble on what we uploaded, wrote or scribble digitally. 

For me, this is the very reason I'm doing this. To be frank, I'm never a romantic person. Hence the love Letters? Because, I love my husband. And sadly, he will never know how much I love him because I'm someone who always screw up in my relationships and often failed to convey or demonstrate my love. In my working environment, I'm a tyrant, heartless and domineering. With friends, I'm a true friend, loyal and playful. With my family, I bear the responsibilities to protect them, to protect my family, for better and for worse. To my kids, my four lovely kids, I'm always the bad mother, strict and unforgiving. But the person I love most is my husband.

If I'm strong enough, I might update frequently, not to broadcast my life but hoping, that my life will one day become a guide for whoever reads this not to repeat my mistakes. It's more as my effort to share through my experience and whatever I share will benefits whoever happens to read this blog. I've got three blogs, and you'll see how different I can be, as an individual, at work and as a person.

And for my husband, you might not know about this blog, but I hope and pray, in the event that I'm no longer in this world, that you may stumble to this blog and know that I love you, for better and for worse, and it is always you whom I love the most. Forgive me in advance for my selfishness and for putting you prior to everything else that I had. 

I love you hubby.